Wow so talk about perfect timing. I broke my toe as I later found out last week on January 31 and then February 1 we start the next scroll….talking all about not regretting things from the day before, making each day count and so on. And boy did I need to hear that. I was so so sad for a couple days but these words were and are so helpful in letting go of breaking my toe and instead focusing on healing and getting even a little rest. I even created my own little affirmation for the toe for when I meditate, lay in bed or riding buses….and it feels good.

My feet are perfect and full of strength.

I couldn’t go see my mom for a few days but did go w her to the cardiologist who at first visit was nice but when it came to discussing results of her 24h ekg just sent her to the hospital doctor. I was so proud of my mom to do this – she said without me she wouldn’t have gone. But it was rough for me bc the doc also made some responsible for her making the choice to allowe a pacemaker to be installed. So far I have not been able to. She desperately needs it and could feel better but seems afraid. She has severe bradycardia and this, probably causing the bradycardia.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Third-degree_atrioventricular_block

It breaks my heart, no pun intended. Each day I pray for her health and courage and that God would sustain her until she decides to do the surgery. I even talked to a pastor here who said maybe she is ready to leave this earth but when I talk to her, she will say she is afraid of the surgery – she never had any besides the c-section.

I’m so grateful to be here though things are a challenge and I keep praying for God to create good from all this. I sure miss my home and husband. And my toddler has been super wired this week, maybe from not sleeping enough or his cough or eating things I don’t let him eat at home. No doubt he knows my stress. He even said “mama hug sad”.

Im able to walk a bit this week. I did order a leash for my son bc running after him especially when outside is impossible still.

Im so thankful for the MkE and all the great readings. I need them so much. And i welcome each morning, however cold, with great gratitude.